| Im so confused right now its beyond imagination |
[10 Dec 2003|02:28pm] |
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Right now im going out with somone I really like. Its gonna be a week tommarow and everything is going great, well maybe it is. I dont want to get to sensitive on this but im still gonna say whats on my mind. I really like her and her heard that she feels the same way, or at least thats what ive been told. But it seems like she doesnt want to be around me. DUDE IM SO DAMN CONFUSED! this happens everytime i go out with someone I dont know what the hell my problem is. ok well im gonna go worry some more. late.
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| its been awhile |
[06 Nov 2003|07:47pm] |
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wow, I havent updated this for awhile. Well where to start. On Halloween I had a wonderful time:). I went to ashleys house and well yea you get the picture, lol. Saturdday I went to kings dominion, and I had a really good time because it was fear fest and it was cool. Sunday I helped in the yard. Monday ashley came over and we watched bruiser in my room, had a really good time again:). Tuesday I went to Shockas house and I brought my bass, I fucked my pick guard up and now I have to get it fixed.Wednsday i realized how mature i was and walked away from a fight, dad was proud, probobly cuz he knew if i fought that kid he would have almost died and he would have gotten a lawsuit lol. Today I came home from school talked to ashley got online, talked to ashley some more, lol, Ashley is very special. Tommarow Im going to ashleys house, and saturday Im hanging out with Spike. Sunday Im probobly gonna praise the lord, yay, then I dont know what else im doing so yea Im pretty much done and I dont know when the next im updating this is gonna be so leave a message if you must.
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| The taste of hate can be sweet only if done with pleasure |
[28 Oct 2003|05:12pm] |
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Ha it was great yesterday. This huge ass fight broke out online because someone couldnt take the fact that they werent wanted any more and broke out with an immture comment. well anyways to change the subject cuz I know if I keep going on that person is gonna leave another stupid comment on here. Today was good, it was funny though cuz today when we were playing tennis in PE brian hit me in the face and it was just funny, then me and brian were trying to hit the balls through the holes on the gate and brian swung his racket and it flew out of his hand and went like half way across the court you just had to be there to realize how funny it was. I have no clue what Im doing on halloween, most likely going to Ashleys house. I get my braces off in like 2 weeks so this is gonna be cool cuz im gonna look like a totally different person since I already got rid of my glasses. Soccer party on the 5th of next month. Spikes birthday coming up at the 29th gotta ask him what he wants, im not wasting more than 20 dollars. This weekend Im defiantely going job hunting cuz I wanna buy a guitar I saw, it was very nice if I may add, the price was even better $349.45 which is pretty good cuz the price was originally like 732 or something. Ha AFI american freak institution how lame can these people get is that really supposed to hurt me cuz everyone knows when it comes to a certain someone it stands for A Fat Indian. And when I say indian I mean native americans so im not crackin on any indians out there. Alright I believe Im done.good night large people.
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| Blah Blah Blah |
[26 Oct 2003|11:15am] |
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Im sitting here playing my bass and nothing else. Im really bored theres nothing else to do. I thnk I might give ashley a call later on. Mom and dad are leaving later on to pancho villa on a date and i have to stay here and watch my fat ass brother. I saw school of rock yesterday it was pretty funny, of course what movie with Jack Black in it isnt? Yet I still havent started my band I wanna say that im sure im gonna start a band but the odds just seem to get smaller everyday. I went to bed pretty late last night, I watched previews to viva la bam and wild boys then I watched a little cartoon network then I just flipped through channels and ate dorritos for about two hours. I woke up this morning on the floor again, I really dont know how the hell I fall off my bed in the middle of the night and not feel it. I guess its cuz Im a freak and a dumbass. I dont know what Im doing for halloween so if anyone has anything going on tell me cuz im free. I think halloween is on a friday so that should be pretty cool cuz we can stayoout later than usual looking at the peoples shitty decorations. Alright kiss my ass.
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| Rocktoberfest |
[25 Oct 2003|09:46am] |
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Yesterday was definately a very good day. I went to Rocktoberfest and met ashley there. Spike came in a little while after so I hung out
with him for a while then I went back to ashley cuz I felt bad for leaving her with her phsyco friend. Spike left early but it was still pretty good. Even though most of the bands sucked it was fun just hangimg out. Today I have to help my did put top soil in the yard because we have no grass and I guess it might not hurt to have some. Afterwards my dad wants to take me to see a movie which is cool cuz i dont have to pay for shit. Well its been great so if anyone wants to leave a message about their weekend go ahead.
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| If despair means emotional death then my soul has long been buried under ground in an eternal sleep |
[23 Oct 2003|06:58pm] |
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Im going to the show. Fuck football, i cant even play, its gonna be fun (I hope). wow I have nothing to say,but the other day I took two ginseng pills and I had a hard on all day, it was funny but hard to hide at the same time. damn Ive gotta stop taking pills I find laying around the house just because their in a shiny bag. I swear Im gonna grow boobs one day cuz of that, probobly swallow hormones pills and end up like Michael Jackson. Alright leave a message if you love me.
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| It looked straight at me |
[21 Oct 2003|05:38pm] |
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Today I watched parts of Lion King, Little Mermaid and Aladin. Now Im sure that you guys have heard the story about lion king where you can see the word sex in the sky so im not gonna talk about that, but if you watch aladin abd fastforward it towards the part where he flies up to Jasmines window Listen to the tiger growl and at some point youll here someone saying "take off your clothes." On little mermaid if you fastforward it to the part where the priest is marrieing the witch in human form to arials man at almost the end of the movie, then you can see the priest has a full fledged erection. This is all true, I didnt belive at first until I actually took the time to do it. Anyways, I had the weirdest dinner tonight, it was fish with the HEAD STILL ATTACHED. I swear it was staring at me so I didnt even finish half of it.Friday I might go to Rocktoberfest the football game or to see Texas chainsaw massacre. Im now staring a band were gonna be called The Luvless its gonna be great. with My bass skills who can hate us I mean really.I talked on the phone for like two and a half hours, I dont remember the last time I talked that long on the phone. Now Im online and noones on which really isnt to bad when you think about it. Its better than having to argue with someone for an hour.Alright peps Im out. Keep it real my african bros.
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| Oh come on your giving me a soft on |
[20 Oct 2003|03:02pm] |
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Im so damn tired right now, I think I have strep again. My throat is killing me. Nothing really exciting happened today. talked slept tried to learn.I finally got my report card. Im still debating if I should go to this weeks football game or not, if I get worse Im probobly not, but I really want to see someone there so I hope I dont get sick. What else should I say, I guess Im done. Yea Im done.
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| So bored |
[19 Oct 2003|04:51pm] |
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Im really bored right now, theres nothing to do. If you think Satan deserves a second chance leave a message.
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| Die, Die My Darling(Misfits) |
[19 Oct 2003|04:48pm] |
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die, die, die my darling don't utter a single word die, die, die my darling just shut your pretty mouth i'll be seeing you again i'll be seeing you in hell don't cry to me oh baby your future's in an oblong box, yeah don't cry to me oh baby should have seen it a-coming on don't cry to me oh baby i don't know it was in your power don't cry to me oh baby dead-end girl for a dead-end guy don't cry to me oh baby now your life drains on the floor don't cry to me oh baby die, die, die my darling don't utter a single word die, die, die my darling just shut your pretty mouth i'll be seeing you again i'll be seeing you in hell don't cry to me a baby your future is in an oblong box don't cry to me oh baby should have seen the end a-coming on, a-coming don't cry to me oh baby i don't know it was in your power don't cry to me oh baby dead-end girl for a dead-end guy don't cry to me oh baby now your life drains on the floor don't cry to me oh baby die, die, die my darling don't utter a single word die, die, die my darling shut your pretty mouth i'll be seeing you again i'll be seeing you in hell don't cry to me oh baby die, die, die my darling don't cry to me oh baby die, die, die my darling die, die, die my darling die, die, die my darling die, die, die, die, die, die....
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| If I replaced the "I" in live with an "o" I still wouldnt remember your name |
[18 Oct 2003|06:23pm] |
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Damn we lost todays game witch cost us first place in the league, now were second place and the season is over. My grass fairy season has ended but I will begin wearing my tu tu and waving my wand around again in the spring or maybe even earlier.I just got back from the mall, I bought a cd The Misfits collection plan 9, which Im listening to right now.well I guess Ill go call Ashley cuz shes called a few times and I havent been here to talk to her. If you want to leave a message then be my guest.
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[17 Oct 2003|11:44pm] |
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Im sorry to anyone Ive hurt and anyone I will hurt during this internal conflict I am facing
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| Friday night and Im infront of my computer |
[17 Oct 2003|06:41pm] |
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I have nothing to do. I was going to the curtis skatepark with Spike and the FUX to skate but spike got his board taken away at school for skating on the property. It was my birthday yesterday but it felt like any other day it doesnt even matter to me any more its just another day closer to death. Im in no hurry to die,ive still got plenty more heart ache to be put through. Nothing else to say.
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| Fuck yea! Now Im pumped |
[15 Oct 2003|01:42pm] |
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Riots in our cities
Riots at your schools
Riots in this country
WE fucking riot just for you
Im fuckin pumped man.I always get this way when I listen to the casualties. And I cant believe that Justine remembered my whole name I was shocked, she made me feel special. Gabriel Jose Mercado Caban La-torre. Got a soccer game today and were gonna fucking win this shit today. and navid I took like three fuckin aderol this morning and it only lasted for like 2 hours, that was the shortest trip ever. I think Im gonna be hard core and shoot heroine like the cool people lol. Im getting my contacts today to so now can see whoevers sucking my dick even if the bitch Im fucking knocked them off while she was having an orgasm. Damn this music makes you say some crazy shit haha. My burns are looking better and better everyday. And when I get them the way I want I aint cutting them off for shit, so if any of you stupid girls think that you can change me then your wrong, cuz I did that before and I got fucked over. damn I should go to the football game to see if I can meet up with that girl who grabbed my dick. LOL I I completely forgot her name. Going skating downtown this weekend with spike and the FUX, Yea the Fux its our gang of street skaters Leave Transworld,leave No finger prints.Alright I think Im gonna go now before I say anything else that might insult someone
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| Somebody shoot me |
[14 Oct 2003|02:47pm] |
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Yea Life pretty Much sux right about now. Never fall back into love as Quickly as you THOUGHT you fell out of it. Im slowly faing away. Somebody shoot me please.
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| Nothing too exicting |
[12 Oct 2003|10:43am] |
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Went to church this morning. Damn it was boring. I got in trouble for eating oreos while that preacher hit on the little kids in front of the church and called it "BONDING". Im going to Va Beach tommarow for sure but I dont know if Im gonna Visit steph cuz I dont know if shes gonna be home. I havent talked to her yet. I bet she blocked me. Yea thats gotta be it. I took like a one minute piss this morning, and you can tell I was bored cuz I counted. Thats about the most exciting my day has gotten thus far. My Birthday is in four days I I cant make up My mind of what ot ask my dad for. I want an Mp3 player and this Nice ass watch I saew at the mall. Its not a fuckin prep watch though its one of those nixon ones with the big ass leather wristband things with spikes on it so its like $80. well if you wanna help me out leave me a message. Ok I guess im done for now.
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| Havent talked to her in days |
[11 Oct 2003|01:12pm] |
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Today I woke up at like 10:00 to get ready for my soccer game.While we were waiting at the field for my game to start I got hit in the face with a ball when we were warming up.Now this is like the 5th pair of glasses that Ive had in the last 3 years so my dad said fuck it were getting you your contacts now, so Im waiting for my fat little brother to finish eating so I can go get a perscription. I dont think Ill have them by monday which really sucks cuz I wanted to show everyone in Va beach that I got them. I havent talked to Steph in a while so I dont know if she still wants me to go over. Oh and if anyone down in Va beach knows Brandy Green(the fat girl) Joke her hairy back.Building Spike a website even though I got amateur skills but its turning out pretty good today. And I might bring my bass over to Shockas house today cuz he just got his drumset.Oh yea we won are game so right now we are in second plce in the playoffs. Cuz were good like that. And because I dont do drugs cuz that shits bad for you. Hahaha. Ok I think Im done, yea Im done. Have a wonderful visit.
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| Her Name Betrayal |
[10 Oct 2003|03:57pm] |
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Clenched up fist and broken glass
my knuckles bleeding out the past
youve got your gun to my hand and your starting to shake
emotion already dead
Now your starting to break
an echoe as clear as the crie of a wolf
a shadow as dark as the depths of hell
the saddest secrets from whom you took
our bleeding hearts will leave a trail
It tears through my skin
Betrayed for the last time
our dark wicked sins
your no longer mine
Lifeless I lie in a puddle of blood
My final breath supporting my life
If this all was so fatal why was I in love
You walk out the door my soul picks up the knife
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| He got a smack and shes got a hairy back. |
[09 Oct 2003|03:17pm] |
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I tried updatiung this today while we were at the computer lab but the teacher caught me. So I guess Ill update it now. The other day I wrote something about someone being a two face but I misunderstood what I was being told. The real to face here is a fat girl called Brandy who obviously doesnt realize shes got alot of shit to joke about also. I hope she chokes on a fuckin twinkie. That hairy backed heffer.But anyways today was good. Spike got smacked by some phsyco girl again today like twice. I think that if she wasnt a girl and if she wsnt half his size he would have killed her cuz he was pretty pissed. I wrote a song but when I started to write it I was really pissed off so it was really showing how I felt at the moment but when I was gonna finish it I wasnt mad anymore so its kinda crappy. I dont know Ill try to put that fucker on here tommarow if something pisses me off. Alright dont Know what else to say so Im gonna go.
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| Two faced |
[07 Oct 2003|02:58pm] |
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Yea Im pissed cuz a very good friend of mine in Va beach told me that someone was jokin me on the bus that was very close to me or at least she said. But when I go over on monday, yea monday, she better not even expect to hear my whisper cuz it isnt gonna happen. She wants to talk shit then fuck it I dont care anymore. Thanks Navid your a cool kid.I Dont know why I ever trusted her in the first place. I dont even see why I felt sorry for her. And if you know me well enough then you would know that I hate two faces. I cant stand them. But any of my Buds down at the beach who want to see me send me an email at Misplcdmemries@netscape.net. Alright, I dont want any from two faced traitors though. Im through.
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